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Post by Sikvdili on Sept 12, 2013 0:50:34 GMT
Will post a series of meditations and lectures here. If you have something to submit here, PM me |
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Post by Sikvdili on Sept 12, 2013 0:51:24 GMT
My meditation on symbolism
Everything technically has the potential to become a symbol. Or acts as a functioning symbol for something else. "sith" is a symbol for darkness. A symbol for individual growth and strength. I have my own definition of why I place emphasis in certain things but symbolism has it's purpose especially in the "dark" community. Darkness itself is a symbol, for me it's a symbol of growth beyond what we originally think we can grow to. Strength beyond what we restrict with weakness. Darkness is dropping the facade we take when we become part of society, and no matter how "ugly" our true face is we still find it beautiful. The facade that people put on to hide their true selves is something everybody, or nearly everybody has done at one point in their life. The "sith" or "dark knight", as Moor referred to, is somebody who is willing to take off the facade. Like I said, the existance we have tells us that the emotions we supress, like hatred and anger are bad, that our "true face is ugly" so there will be pain that comes from doing this. I did it, I got a fair amount of hatred from it too, which was still something I didn't expect from a "society of acceptance". But this is what I learnt from this post and from my path thus far in the dark side, I do care what other people think of me and sometimes I do fear their disgust and wish for their approval, I just don't let that fear hold me back from achieving what I desire. I don't need their approval and I don't have to "register" ( for lack of a better term) their disgust. Considering that I am disgusted at how they remain in the state of "content" and that their judgement is based on fear of somebody plunging into the abyss, they are afraid that I don't need that, so maybe I really don't care. At the very least, I'm working to not care about their judgement ( their is a balance for that which I recognise of not caring about their disgust but not absolutely dismissing it because then I might not take aboard neccasary criticisms). This is what I asked myself and ask you. Is this truly who you are? Or is it what you've told yourself you are to please other people? And are you willing to look at your true face in the mirror? Or are you held back by somebody else's morality on you? Are you too scared to call it "beautiful"? You should only answer to one person in this existance, that's you. This is my challenge to you. Show a side of your true self today, in public in front of people, whether that be hugging or kissing a total stranger to screaming "fuck" in the middle of a library. Take off that facade for at least 30 seconds, and fucking love it.
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Post by Sikvdili on Sept 12, 2013 0:53:43 GMT
My meditation on "the force".
This has become such an undeservingly scary topic in the force community. People are afraid to say " I believe in magic" or "I believe in spirituality". Simply because somebody else in the room doesn't. Who do you have to prove it to? Seriously guys, if you need me to start then I will. I believe that if I concentrate hard enough and focus I could have the power to light a candle on fire without touching it or using a lighter. I truly believe that. What you believe is irrellevant right now. This isn't what you believe this is what I believe. You'll get your turn later. I believe that working the Force covers a lot of different topics. I don't believe it's restricted to magic or energy manipulation. And yes I realise that witchcraft doesn't have as many real life applications for YOU, me? I use it to meditate, I use it to set goals, to drive passions and become stronger. It's a thing of enjoyment if anything, I do it because I love magic. Sure I don't have the best reasoning or any deep thought with it, but it's my practice. My practice makes me happy. Witchcraft is "dark". Why? because people are too afraid to explore nowadays, they use cold science and all that. I'm not against science I'm just saying that we shouldn't restrict our existance to understanding. People understand the "light". The meditate on it and pray to it, whatever. With the dark they fear it, the condemn it and shun it. Or they enjoy it. They pursue it, regardless of the price to achieve what they desire and they aren't afraid to admit it, nor should they be afraid to admit it. Sometimes people are afraid to admit that they desire something impossible, they shun that thinking at childhood. Get that shit early. Fuck that, man. Go for it, I believe in magic. There is an undeniable energy or connection between people, emotions and reading emotions does that. That's an energy and we manipulate it. Girls can apparently talk through body-language, which was the type of energy I experimented in. I did something with it. I expanded my aura with a few people today with the goal of upsetting the balance for deficit or benefit with three people. The first guy was another cab driver, now I am not a loud person, I am fairly quiet and with this guy I spoke clearly so he could hear me but with a quieter voice and gentler actions. I wanted to see if by the end of the conversation if he would be quieter and softer to, I used body language, certain phrases and by the end of if, we shook hands and he was quieter and gentler. The second one was my boss, he's a fairly anxious guy, good guy but kinda annoying to be around, I tried to lift his spirits and make him happier to be around and see if I could do that without "cheering him up". I walked in with a smile on my face, used a gentler voice ( note, with working with people. Gentle approaches when trying to manipulate emotions is pretty helpful). I had a smile on my face, asked him how he was doing, how his kid was. Whether I could do extra shifts or whatever , used manners. And it worked, he was less stressed and happy. The third one was somebody who always comes talking to me, my landlady. I didn't wanna talk to her and I wanted to make her feel uncomfortable with this conversation, so I became rigid in my movements and expanded my aura to discomfort to reach her, the conversation didn't last a minute. Now granted I've been experimenting like this for a very long time, can't remember how long at least over 10 years so it does take practice to observe how the emotions in somebody work. Nor am I saying you should try something in emotional manipulation. We're talking about energy manipulation. Find something in your life, make an opportunity for yourself do something and reap the results. Explore your passions and don't let what other people think bring that down, this is your darkness, your passion and your life and journey. Plunge yourself into that darkness. That abyss. Take that risk. I did. I took one a few days ago and you know what it didn't end well for me. I lost. But I fucking took the jump, and if you truly love your darkness, your true self. You'll understand what I mean when I say, even though I failed. I loved every minute of it and have absolutely no regrets.
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Post by sikvdili on Sept 21, 2013 7:01:40 GMT
Chaos vs Harmony
NOTE = Some will argue this is very similar to my last post. It is. This has the same principle in mind, sure. Just different application. Both are neccassary in my opinion.
These are two forces in nature. The very definition of them kinda contradict each other. And since y'all love the dictionary. I searched for them:
har·mo·ny
[hahr-muh-nee] Show IPA
noun, plural har·mo·nies.
1.
agreement; accord; harmonious relations.
2.
a consistent, orderly, or pleasing arrangement of parts; congruity.
3.
Music.
a.
any simultaneous combination of tones.
b.
the simultaneous combination of tones, especially when blended into chords pleasing to the ear; chordal structure, as distinguished from melody and rhythm.
c.
the science of the structure, relations, and practical combination of chords.
4.
an arrangement of the contents of the Gospels, either of all four or of the first three, designed to show their parallelism, mutual relations, and differences.
chaos
Use Chaos in a sentence
cha·os
[key-os] Show IPA
noun
1.
a state of utter confusion or disorder; a total lack of organization or order.
2.
any confused, disorderly mass: a chaos of meaningless phrases.
3.
the infinity of space or formless matter supposed to have preceded the existence of the ordered universe.
4.
( initial capital letter ) the personification of this in any of several ancient Greek myths.
5.
Obsolete . a chasm or abyss.
So basically they obviously contradict each other. It's in their very character. In the codes etc. Harmony is balance and organisation. Chaos is disruption, simple as that.
But, are they really against each other? Don't opposites attract?
I don't know... but I will say that we do pit them up against each other an awful lot. Or at least , I do. I'm just asking should we?
I'll illustrate with a story:
there's two guys, same job, different job it doesn't really matter.
One guy is harmony, they're married got a good job or maybe not. Let's just say they have an organised lifestyle. They do their job, pay their bills and live their life according to a routine. They like the routine, love it even. They use this routine to improve themselves, they look at the job they do and say stuff like "I'll do it better next time" or they fail and say the same.
They organise everything. Keep it simple and tidy. They love it. It's their passion, it brings them joy and their lifestyle of routine and balance lets them grow and become stronger.
Then there's the other guy, Chaos. They've had many different jobs and they don't like organisation. They don't live by it. One day Chaos wakes up late and rushes to work. The other day they wake up early and goes for a run. The next, they wake up early but decides to watch the news instead. Then they just don't really bother and sleeps until they have to for a few days.A week later, they wakes up early, and decides to go for a run, but this time they run faster and longer. The only way they choses an activity is if it interests them. The only way the stops an activity is if their interest is disrupted by something else and so they'll go do that instead.
They don't have a direct goal to improve. Then can and do improve. But they're main goal is action, they are always creating, destroying or interacting with their environment. They may not always improve it, but they do interact with it at all times. As they also react from their environment at all times. They are in a constant state of change and action.
Then one day, something bad happens. Harmony get's stressed and starts to panick. They hold onto their routine and try to muscle through it. Chaos just reacts and takes the damage, dealing more out. The damage he deals out however, affects Harmony. It hurt's their routine, the panick is getting worse for them. They are stressing out, systems are being made to compensate for everything so nothing gets harmed. A simple organisation is not becoming a beaurocracy full of self deciet and fear.
What does Chaos do? What Chaos always does. They disrupted Harmony again. They said "Shut up and take a deep breath". Take a break from your routine. Accept the damage and change for a little while and then get back to it. Harmony does this and accepts the scars. They freak out and blow steam then finally come together again. They can do their job now. They can live their routine again. Improve themselves again because they accepted a little chaos.
This is saying this. If you want Harmony, that's great. But that harmony will become suffering if you cling to it too tightly, if you use it as a defense mechanism. Because that ain't balance anymore. That's just fear, insecurity.
I'm trying to say this. Let a little chaos in your life. Bad things are gonna happen to you. I promise you. You can't cling to routine and ""harmony"" during that. Let the shit fall. Wallow in it. Embrace a chaos, a randomness. You can enjoy it or not, just do something different and watch your routine. Blow the steam off. Then sure, go back to it.
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Post by Sikvdili on Oct 22, 2013 11:51:33 GMT
The Sinister
This is a word we should all be familiar with. Of it represents a danger, threat or adversity to the established order, collective a community or individual. The sinister is a nature. One possessed by the individual. It's arecognition of power and mastery. I do not fear nor deem the powerless or the vacant as "sinister", do you?
So Sinister? The mastery, threat or Adversary. This is a tool of the Satanist or darksider How do you use it? Well, how do I use it?
The sinister is a weapon upon the modern society which has become a breeding ground of dependency and addiction. The comfort zone is something I'm infamous for rebelling against. This is how I employ “sinister” practices.
But that's as far as I'll go in terms of the communal "sinister".
What I really want to discuss and reflect on is the sinister nature and exploration in the individual. Now I previously described “sinister” as a force of destruction, but reflecting back on it, it is the recognition of a driving force. When somebody is purely driven by what they stand for. When I have an absolute motivation for an ideology it will be sinister or destructive to another ideology. And don’t translate this as the victim of “sinister” as an opposing ideology. More often than not, it’s usually two forces of the identical root. An example of this is St Francis of Assissi, he was a figure in Roman Catholicism known for his drastic and extremist measures for poverty and humility. When this guy found out that one of his “brothers” had around only three coins, Francis threw them into some mud and told the guy to pick them up with his teeth. But his activism for poverty and equality had a sinister nature to the modern clerical traditions within the RCC, as well as the rising industrial relationships and establishments in Italy at the time. This was a driving force that was deemed a threat. Yet in hindsight grew to define the church again.
It is a heresy. Formed yet unknown. It can be a glorious darkness or an unruled chaos.
Can we apply the same to the individual? Is there the driving force within myself? Or is it a force I must face? Will it destroy me or will it define me? And where will that take me? The sinister is the recognition that I am a complex mechanism of thought and conscience, and through abuse of this beautiful system I have veiled a self deceit. Something to destroy. The sinister is the driving force that would appear obsessive to the observer. That the followings and beliefs I stand for are things evoking fatal pride. Destroying the very conscience that walked the path of self deceit. I am willing to destroy myself, to destroy an ideology. Through recent time I have grown to welcome others destroy me and what I present. And I am willing to destroy you.
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Post by lena01 on Sept 13, 2017 15:26:02 GMT
A lecture (from the French 'lecture', meaning 'reading' [process]) is an oral presentation intended to present information or teach people about a particular subject, for example by a university or college teacher. Lectures are used to convey critical information, history, background, theories, and equations. A politician's speech, a minister's sermon, or even a businessman's sales presentation may be similar in form to a lecture. Usually the lecturer will stand at the front of the room and recite information relevant to the lecture's content.
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